Saying Out Loud

You know there are a few things that you have always wanted to say out, put it on record, but never really did. I have always been a wallflower. I have tried to blend in groups and failed. Every single time.

Here are some facts about me:

  • I am socially awkward. I have tried making small talk, but I have always failed. I cannot keep a conversation going. I absolutely lack those skills. I want to talk to people sometimes but, I don’t know the algorithm to do so. Even when I really want to talk to someone, I fail terribly. Initiating a conversation is a Herculean task for me. I am absolutely bad at keeping touch with people. This has cost me many of my friends.
  • The world is a very lonely place to be. They say the idea of love or “the one” is overrated. You don’t need someone to complete yourself. You are self-sufficient. Wouldn’t it be nice though to have someone you could go back to anytime and talk about absolutely anything without any fear or hesitation? Isn’t this the “one” everyone seeks? Someone called “home”.
  • Music? Dance? Never been able to truly appreciate these art forms. Give me dead silence over these any day. Coming to parties, let’s not even talk about it. Nothing makes me more uncomfortable than those trippy lights and loud music.
  • I crave deep meaningful conversations. Not just talking but communicating. I feel that I often give out the impression that I am not very keen on talking. My social awkwardness reigns supreme. If only one could look through my mind.
  • The thing that I hate the most? The fact that people build/modify their opinions about a person based on what others have to say about him/her despite already knowing and understanding that person. If someone is nice to me why should I believe you when you say that he is not a nice person. As long as he is nice to me, everything’s fine.
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4 thoughts on “Saying Out Loud”

  1. Hi Aikansh.
    It was good reading you say out loud.
    Having said that, do you think it helps? Do you feel better about letting it out, telling people what you feel or is it the same hallowing feeling inside?
    Did opening up change things for you?

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    1. Hi Randomstranger, well to be honest I don’t know. I don’t know why did I even write this up. I just did. This was a pretty small exercise to have caused any real change. I am not really the opening-up type of person.
      Saying this, I plan to keep on writing regularly. I do hope something positive comes out of it.

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  2. Almost felt like I’m reading something that I have written, almost.
    Except about music and dance; I can, to some extent appreciate music and dancing. Apart from that, the post completely resonates.
    Thank you for ‘saying out loud’. I say it, in unison ☺️

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