Have you seen your God?

May 18, 2018

I like to think of myself as an atheist. It is not easy though, being from a deeply religious family. To me, the idea of God and the stories that go with it have always appeared what Yuval Harari terms as “common myths”. God, to me, seems too mystical and idealistic to be true. Well, I can go on and on (ranting :P) about my feelings on the concept of a deity. That is not the point I am trying to make though.

Today, it was different.
You know the kind of moment when everything just changes, and you know that it is for the best. The kind of moment that words can never do justice to. The moment that was just a dream until that very second.

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There was lightning.
There was roar.
There was jubilation.
There were tears.
There was euphoria.
There were goosebumps.
There was just enough of everything to make that moment a forever.

You know, the enormous elation and satisfaction that people experience when they complete a pilgrimage, I get that now! मैं धन्य हो गया !

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Have you seen your God yet? Because I just witnessed mine.

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PS: I got to fulfil my lifelong dream of watching MSD play live. The welcome he received when he came out to bat was nothing short of phenomenal. It was one of the most beautiful moments of my life ❤

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Letter From A Hopeless Romantic


Hi You

You have always loved to play hide and seek, haven’t you? You seem to pretty good at it. Seeking, was never my cup of tea. I give up now! I think the time has come for your “dhappa”. I wouldn’t mind it at all. In fact, I’d secretly love it.

You are dying of laughter as you try to teach me to dance. I with a sheepish grin fail terribly to match your steps. It’s not my fault though! How so you expect me to concentrate while you giggle incessantly.

We discuss how modern love is not love. I see us doing everything old-school. I see us having intelligent conversations. You always manage to keep the conversation going despite my inability to do so.

And booookssss! I don’t usually lend books, but for you, I’ll make an exception. We’ll collect books together! I’ll try to catch your literary references and will try shoot some your way too. Have you read The Perks of Being A Wallflower? It’s my favorite book! Don’t worry if you have seen the movie already. The best part is that the movie is directed by the author himself.

You laugh not at my jokes, but at how hard I try to crack them. I will teach you to appreciate puns, don’t worry. You’ll see how it is the most beautiful thing in the entire world.

I am yet to figure out whether you are gonna be a tea or coffee person. I’ll make you like tea, that’s for sure.

I know about all that talk of self-love and you-don’t-need-anyone-else, but without you there, the world somehow seems a very lonely place to be.

We haven’t probably even met (have we?) and I have already burdened you with so many expectations, haven’t I? You know how much I romanticize things. I know you’ll be just perfect (See? another expectation!).

Or maybe you are nothing as I have imagined. All I know is that you’ll be worth all the wait.

Only Yours

Quote of the Day #11

She just smiled, said that she loved books more than anything, and started telling him excitedly what each of the ones in her lap was about. And Ove realised that he wanted to hear her talking about the things she loved for the rest of his life.

Ove had never been asked how he lived before he met her. But if anyone had asked him, he would have answered that he didn’t.

-Fredrik Backman, A Man Called Ove

See? Easy!

All I had to do was get out of the apartment for a couple hours so Uncle Marshall could propose to Aunt Lily, go to the bar, meet your Aunt Robin, convince your Aunt Robin to fall in love with me, break up with your Aunt Robin, go on the rebound, go get a rebound tattoo, go get the rebound tattoo removed, meet Stella, convince Stella to fall in love with me, get engaged, get left at the altar, get fired, get beat up by a goat, get a job as a professor, teach the wrong class, date the wrong girl, date the wrong girl again, date the wrong girl a few times, actually, let Uncle Barney fall in love with Aunt Robin, let Aunt Robin fall in love with Uncle Barney, book the wedding band, go to their wedding, make sure their wedding actually happened, leave a little early, be in the right place at the right time, and somehow, summon the guts to do the stupidest, most impossible thing in the world: Walk up to that beautiful girl standing under the yellow umbrella… and start talking.

See? Easy.

Quote of the day #7

When did we see each other face-to-face? Not until you saw into my cracks and I saw into yours. Before that, we were just looking at ideas of each other, like looking at your window shade but never seeing inside. But once the vessel cracks, the light can get in. The light can get out.

― John Green, Paper Towns

Be My Forever?

So can I call you mine now, darling.For a whole life time?

Most of the people in my age are always looking for someone to fall in love with. The perfect match! Someone who can be the apple of their eyes. Someone who completes them. Someone who makes them feel special. The search is always on. As it turns out in most cases, it’s easier to find a needle in a haystack. But why is it so? Why are we always concerned about finding The One? Is it because man is a social being and he is not programmed to live alone. I guess there comes a point in everyone’s life when we need someone around whom we can feel special. Someone who fills the hollows inside us. A person we can LOVE.

But then, what IS love and why do so many people who love each other tend to fall apart after a certain time? Love probably is the most innocent of all emotions, the purest of all feelings. Words cannot do justice in describing the true feeling of love. It can only be experienced( clichéd I know :p).  Sadly though, love as a word is used so abundantly that it has lost its true meaning somewhere. Today, love in its true sense is misunderstood. It is easier to “love” a person than to like him (her). At times some of us get too eager to be in a relationship. It is not always because we want something out of it. The social high-standing a committed person gets is a lot to be blamed upon. Relationships, in fact are extremely overrated. One cannot deny the fact a relationship is an important aspect of any individual’s life but, a troubled relationship can have severe adverse effects on a person’s mental and emotional well-being. As it is said, relationships are like farts, if you have to force it then it is shit!

Being intimate with the person we love is generally thought to be equivalent to being physical. But is it so? The current that passes through us when we are with that person, the Goosebumps we get merely thinking about that person, that’s the real intimacy. The intimacy of two souls! “Making love” comes much later.  It is the ultimate expression of love but, should it be the foundation of a relationship. Think about it. Among all the love stories we have read or seen, did two people fall for each other merely by getting physically intimate? No! In our age it’s generally the feeling of lust that drives people into physical intimacy. In the long run, it can have serious repercussions on the emotional, mental and physical health of both the individuals.

I sometimes wonder though as to how does one truly fall in love. Does it happen when we are searching for it or does it happen accidentally when we least expect it to? Different stories for everyone maybe. The idea of love at first sight though eludes me. How possibly can we experience the inner depths of a person merely by looking at her (him)? It should rather be termed as an attraction at first sight. True love is definitely deeper than that. Unlike gravity, the force of true love does not hold us back. It rather pushes us to fly high in both public and personal lives. just-wanted-to-let-you-know-that-i-still-love-youThe feeling of contentment and inner calm with her(him)  just being around will tell it all. The reality will probably be better than our dreams. Our happiness will be a function of her(his) happiness. We can continue to be ourselves knowing that they shall always be there for us. All this is possible if and only if we “fall” for the right person. Falling in “love” with the wrong person is as dangerous as riding a mad horse. You don’t know where it will lead you to. When you start developing feelings for a person, ask yourself “if that person gains 10kgs more, will I still like her (him) the same?” The answer will let you know what has to be done. In the end, true love is all about how you connect with a person. A good friendship is the basis of an everlasting relationship. It is a lack of friendship not a lack of love that makes unhappy relationships.

To all those seeking their love, hang in there. Keep on learning, growing, meeting new people and enjoying life. A day will come when someone will make this beautiful gift of life even more worthwhile. And soon or later, in our hearts we will know that this is the One.

Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind,
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.” – William Shakespeare